Solitude

“Pain is a pesky part of being human, I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.” 
    C. JoyBell C.   

 

I'm unpredictable, I never know where I'm going until I get there, I'm so random, I'm always growing, learning, changing, I'm never the same person twice (sorta). But one thing you can be sure of about me; is I will always do exactly what I want to do. It's not very easy to grow up into a woman. We are always taught, almost bombarded, with ideals of what we should be at every age in our lives: "This is what you should wear at age twenty", "That is what you must act like at age twenty-five", "This is what you should be doing when you are seventeen." But amidst all the many voices, there lacks the voice of assurance. There is no comfort and assurance. "I want to be able to say, that there are four things admirable for a woman to be, at any age! Whether you are four or forty-four or nineteen! It's always wonderful to be elegant, it's always fashionable to have grace, it's always glamorous to be brave, and it's always important to own a delightful perfume!" Yes, wearing a beautiful fragrance is in style at any age!”  AND always have an outlet for the days you don't feel too pretty or composed, or confident, or loved or just plain lost. More so on those days when all you feel is anger, frustration and you're mad at the universe! My outlet in one word, Solitude! A space to scream, to cry, and be silent.