Solitude

“Pain is a pesky part of being human, I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.” 
    C. JoyBell C.   

 

I'm unpredictable, I never know where I'm going until I get there, I'm so random, I'm always growing, learning, changing, I'm never the same person twice (sorta). But one thing you can be sure of about me; is I will always do exactly what I want to do. It's not very easy to grow up into a woman. We are always taught, almost bombarded, with ideals of what we should be at every age in our lives: "This is what you should wear at age twenty", "That is what you must act like at age twenty-five", "This is what you should be doing when you are seventeen." But amidst all the many voices, there lacks the voice of assurance. There is no comfort and assurance. "I want to be able to say, that there are four things admirable for a woman to be, at any age! Whether you are four or forty-four or nineteen! It's always wonderful to be elegant, it's always fashionable to have grace, it's always glamorous to be brave, and it's always important to own a delightful perfume!" Yes, wearing a beautiful fragrance is in style at any age!”  AND always have an outlet for the days you don't feel too pretty or composed, or confident, or loved or just plain lost. More so on those days when all you feel is anger, frustration and you're mad at the universe! My outlet in one word, Solitude! A space to scream, to cry, and be silent.

For My Sister...

Last post, I talked about my sister’s pending nuptials. Well, she’s a married woman now and that wedding was definitely the highlight of my year;  she made one heck of a beautiful bride, I am super proud of her (psych). Now, I can count the number of weddings I’ve attended before this one (two!!) and I had no clue whatsoever how much work it all was; take it from me, IT IS WORK!!!!!! Haven’t been that tired at any one time in my ENTIRE life, but you know, it was all well worth the running around, bad hair days, mood swings and all the weight loss (yes, scales don’t lie. lol)! When the big day finally came around, all that was forgotten; enter nerves, anxiety, excitement n emotions sitting on pins and needles! I didn’t even know what I was feeling in the end, madness I tell you, madness I’d embrace all over! I can’t even begin to imagine what my sister was feeling, besides indecision about which tiara, what neck piece and which earrings to wear; I swear she had jewellery for five brides, haha. We (bridal party) were fashionably late, translated 2hours late, wasn’t so funny then but thinking back to it, hahahaha, oh my, the groom must have died a thousand lil’ deaths, but we made it; happy bride, happy groom! Long story cut short, July 1^st 2013, was a day that will be in my heart and in my mind for a lifetime. Beautiful  people, beautiful event, happiness all round, it was absolute perfection! To my sister and her husband, wishing you the happiest marriage! There goes my bestie, all married and grown... who’s next? I know it definitely ain’t me..hahaha.

Pics coming soon, and here's the speech they never got to hear...

"Good afternoon everyone. I know that I am not nearly as popular as my gorgeous and radiant sister here, and so for those of you who do not know me, I am the bride’s very proud sister, and maid of honor. I am here to deliver a short speech, which will hopefully have no emotional hiccups. But if it does, please bear with me.

Sis, now Mrs. Mithi , and to your charming husband, congrats! Know that I am truly happy for you, you deserve it.  We’ve shared everything since we were young; we might have argued, bickered and even fought as kids, but as always we found a way to make up. The love we have for each other has taught us a lot on forgiveness and the utter need for each other. The older we’ve grown, the stronger our bond has grown, both as sisters and friends. And I know, that though she is married now, we will always have that special connection. I am so happy to be part of this very special day and I know she has found her soul mate. Our father, OBM, who cannot be with us today, MHSRIP, would agree that this day is one for happiness and looking ahead. He would have been very pleased to know what a comfort the groom has been to my sister and how happy he has made her by making her his bride today.

And to my brother in law, a warning, hurt her and I’ll hurt you. But seriously, love her and take care of her. Most importantly, never ever give up on her. Marriage does not only create a kinship. It also joins together two souls in the holy sacrament of matrimony. As they always say, it won’t be easy; you won’t always agree on things but trust that your love is enough to make everything alright.

My wish for both of you is that you’ll find the happiness that you deserve within your marriage. Never falter on your love, because it is true. Prove to us that love still exists, and that it exists in your relationship. May you have as many kids as you want, and may your family be centered on our creator Jesus Christ.

Please raise your glasses and give a toast to the bride and groom."

 

5months until 2014!!!!! Whaaaa?!!! time's definitely flying by, or so I think.
Feels like was just the other day we bid 2012 farewell. So its been a month
And then some since my last post, seems scribbling has taken the back seat.
Anywho, am here and I am ready to scribble!!!!! Phone's being a nut case, so
Looks like my next post will have to wait for tomorrow.